New Beginnings

The new year begins in a few short hours, and as I think about everything that has happened this year, I am grateful to be here celebrating 2015. This past year, my whole life changed. i graduated from high school, I left home, and I gave up everything that I cared about to follow the plan I believed God had for me. "Get up and follow me" has never felt so applicable to my life. I gave up all my friends, my family, and my hometown, but now I am blessed to have a new home and a group of the most amazing individuals as friends. This was the hardest year of my life, and yet it has been so rewarding. I have been afraid about the future my whole life, and now as I look to 2015 I realize I am no longer afraid. I made it this far, right? Don't get too caught up in past as you look back, but also don't get too caught up in what could be, live in the present because it contains everything that is. We are looking to new beginning, and it is full of everything we could imagine. Make it what you want, and make it yours. Don't let people tell you what to do or who to be, and know you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. If you could get through this year, you can get through everything that is to come. Take a deep breath and be prepared to begin, with the beginning of 2015, the wildest adventure you could possibly imagine. Take this year head on, and never let anything get in the way of what is most important. This is the time for new beginnings and this is the time to be everything you were made for, so Just Do It. Don't stress about make a new year's resolution, instead focus on making this new year everything you want it to be. And don't forget to laugh every opportunity you get, because laughter is the best medicine.  Happy New Year!!  :)

Beautifully Broken

I am often a mess. I can't match my clothes properly or do my hair..ever. I hate dressing up and sometimes I hate being a girl. I look at myself and I see all my problems. I see all the zits and all the parts of me I think need to be fixed.. the parts of me that aren't perfect. I see that I can't concentrate

on anything and I make a mess of everything. I over analyze every aspect of my life and often screw everything up for myself. I don't trust people and I've built up so many walls so that no one can hurt me..  I am broken. Shattered to bits and pieces that I thought no one would want to pick them up, and I even didn't think I could piece myself back together. I still often believe this. I think I am too messed up to be loved. But I am totally and completely wrong. Every day I am here I am reminded of how absolutely wrong I have been this entire time. Yes, I am broken.. I may even be as shattered as I think I am, but I am not too messed up be loved. Every piece of me that is broken makes me who I am, and guess what?  These flaws and broken bits of us are what make us beautiful. We are blessed with all these beautiful people in our lives, and the crazy thing is they are broken too. Yes, they may not be as broken as you, and they may never understand you, but someone out there does.

For the first time in my life I have found people I trust with everything I am, all my broken pieces and all my flaws. And although I don't normally feel beautiful on the outside, I know I was broken so I could be this person I am now. And this person that I have been molded into is beautiful. You are beautiful because these broken pieces are the world's best shot of getting you to fail, but you are still here pushing through. So what, you broke along the way. You aren't meant to withstand everything thrown at you. You are just expected to hold on until the sun comes after the storm. It's okay to be broken, it means you're are still alive. So, next time you feel like you're not beautiful remember you are taking this whole life thing one step at a time, and you are rocking it, because the world's got nothing on you. You were made by a God who loves you more then anything else, and you've got people in your life who think you are more amazing then you realize. You can do it all, and you are going to do it your own way, because you are beautifully broken into who you are, and I, for one, am so thankful you are who you are.

It's time for More Adventures

 Look around you and you are surrounded by so many amazing individuals and this earth is the most gorgeous thing possible. I have come across a deep love for adventure these last few months, and this desire to be closer to the earth and closer to God has created such a beautiful joy in my heart. Our generation has lost the beauty of the outside, when we could all benefit so much from it. God loved us so much he not only created us but he also created this beautiful earth. I used to want to spend most of my time watching TV or messing around on my phone and although I still I want to do both of those things, it's no longer my go-to activity. I would rather go on a real adventure: climb a mountain, hike through the woods, or even going to an empty field and watch the stars for a night. These have been some of the most beautiful moments in my life. I have been able to see the world for what it truly is, and the crazy thing about the world, is it's perfect without all the buildings and gadgets we have today. It was always perfect, we just thought we improved it, but instead we lost some of the amazing aspects of it.

I am amazed by the solid friendships I have made through all this exploring. My best friends are those people who love God and the earth as much as I do. We love to do simple things like take long walks through the woods just to enjoy each others' company. This is a beautiful experience because you really leave all the technology and stress of the world behind you and just allow yourself to be alive. I believe we were originally supposed to live like this. We were supposed to love each other and enjoy our lives in awe of God's power through the earth He has given us.  We spend so much time rushing from thing to thing. In school I rush from class to class to homework session to extracurricular activity, but I've begun to take moments to do tiny things like feel the sunlight on my face or take the long way to class so I can see the beautiful leaves on all the trees. These are so small but they are ways God can say "I Love You" everyday and you can be calm because you are not only one with yourself but also one with nature. It's a beautiful gift being alive, don't waste it. GO on adventures, SEE the world, and LOVE God.

Only One Thing To Do

Throughout my life, I have always been told that I had one thing to do everyday. That was it, just one simple thing, and that was to love. All I had to do was to love God with my whole heart and love everyone else in the world as much as I love myself. Jesus did say these were the most important commandments, but if we think about it, all we have to do everyday is love. That truly is the most important thing we need to do . In the first few weeks of college, I have found that I finally understand this. Living with 400 of your "closest friends"  isn't always easy, but you learn to see God in every single person at every stage. Sometimes love means being there to make someone laugh on their bad days, sometimes it means being the girl who goes to Wal-Mart with them because they don't want to go alone, and sometimes it just means sitting there and listening to them talk about their life. Love comes in all sorts of forms. I have found that even saying hi and smiling to someone is sometimes all
they need. I tend to sit in the Quad and say Hi to everyone who passes even if they don't know me, because you just need to be making other people's lives just a

bit better. I think that we've underestimated the importance of simple things, like smiling. It seems so small and stupid but we want to be wanted. Soemtimes we can't do that for people, but a simple smile can show them that yes, they are noticed and yes, they are important. My friends are always shocked that I talk to everyone, even if I don't know them. But why shouldn't I? They are just as important as my friends are, and they need to be loved too. They are the people you need to begin loving, because your friends already know you love them. I couldn't imagine my life without every single person in my life, and that includes the people I don't know very well. Most of our lives we struggle to find a purpose, but our  purpose is right in front of us. I have never felt like I wasn't worth something when I was spending my time loving someone else. Doesn't that contradict society right there? Society tells us to do what we want so we can be happy, but in truth we are happier when we are not thinking about ourselves at all and we are just focusing on the people around us. Life is so beautiful and it's time for us to start living like it.. and, of course, BE HAPPY.  Let everyone know who you are by the love you show to others.

Deep Breath

There are a lot of  things out there that stress us out these days. We have friends we are trying to impress, teachers we don't want to hate us, coaches and teams we don't want to let down, and about a billion other things that are breathing down our backs every day. It is extremely difficult to find a  moment just to breathe and sometimes just a moment when we can be ourselves. What if for one day we didn't care about what the rest of the world thought, and we just allowed ourselves to be, well, us.

We are such incredible beings, and we are loved with an incomparable love that nothing should worry us. If we think about it, when was the last time God didn't take care of everything? We get all worked up, and in the end, is it really worth it? We give ourselves to fear when God has already said, "Do Not Fear, Only Believe"(Mark 5:36). Believing in Him and trusting in Him is our greatest strength. Nothing is impossible for God, so why do we think we can't get everything done. I think it's time to step back and look at the world a little differently. Take a moment to look at the beautiful blue sky and think about how great it is to be alive. Smile at the people we meet and give each other a reason to smile, by doing this small act you can do a world of help to another person. Take a deep breath, and remember you can do this. It's hard sometimes and often we feel like we can't, but we are so blessed, we can do anything we put our minds to, we just have to give God just a little and he's going to do it all for us anyways. God is good all the time, so give yourself time to breathe. And always be you. We need more people to stop pretending to be someone else and start being themselves. You are wonderful, and don't ever forget it! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

See You Soon!

Saying good-bye is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I don't enjoy that feeling when you think you may never see someone again. It's scary to think that people you have known your whole life might not be there anymore. Leaving for college is extremely scary because you go off on your own for the first time ever. I like to think of myself as a glass half full kind of girl, but when it comes to good-byes, I tend to be very pessimistic. Having said that, I think we all exaggerate letting go of these people because we believe in the worst case scenario, and think they are gone forever. This is ridiculous, our friends and family aren't dead, they are just on a different place on the same planet. They don't say it's a small world for no reason.. it really isn't all that big. We have the technology now that allows us to call people, and if that's not good enough we can Skype whenever we want and see each other's faces. Plus, coming from the same area, there is no way someone is just going to disappear.  We really do stress out too much about a made up scenario.

Leaving means you have the opportunity to love a whole new group of people
and it allows you to grow as a person. It opens up a whole new world and you can be who you really are without the pressure of people who have known you your entire life. You really be you! What a beautiful opportunity! As Kid President says, "You're Alive, You're Awesome, Live Like it!"  Well, it's time for us all to start living like it!
So for anyone going off to
college, don't be afraid of the inevitable goodbye, because guess what... YOU GOT THIS!

I, personally, am done with saying good-bye for good. We get so worked up about worrying about never seeing someone again we fail to see the wonderful people God has placed in our lives at that moment. So, I guess I'll See Ya Soon! Much Love to all of you!! I can't wait to see where the world takes us. You can't get rid of me yet!

Just Wanted to Say Thanks

Happy Summer!!!   It's crazy to look back and realize just two months ago I was freaking out about prom, finals, graduation, and everything in between.  And now I have officially graduated from Seton High School and I am looking forward to all that college has to offer me. But before I begin this incredible upcoming journey I wanted to say thank you. These last few years have been challenging, but I am incredibly blessed to have so many amazing people in my life who have helped me get through it all.

First, I would like to thank my family.  I mean without them, I wouldn't be who I am. They deal with every side of me, and they have been with me through it all. I always had my brother to make me laugh on my worst days, and my younger siblings to give me the best hugs. I've had so many late night talks with my sister just to get me through the week and sometimes just to get us through the night. (By the way these aren't ending because I'm leaving for college... you are stuck with me forever) I've always had someone to back me up. My parents have really been saints these last 18 years, I mean I'm something..but they never gave up on me and they always kept me going and I couldn't ever ask for a better set of role models in my life.

Next, to all the teachers and adults at Seton, thank you for all you have taught me these last four years. I learned so much from them and I am extremely thankful to have had this time with them. They were always there for me when I had a problem or needed advice. They are some of the strongest people I have ever met and often they were teaching us about life while keeping us laughing. Especially to Mrs. Carroll, who changed my life in the short time I have had the pleasure of knowing her, thank you. And to all the rest, I couldn't be more grateful to have them in my life.

Finally, to my incredible class, thank you all from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for allowing me to be apart of the best family I could ever ask for. You have all impacted me in an everlasting way and I cannot even begin to explain my love for you all. Thank you for all the AMS classes, the strange assemblies, and the Haiti loadings. Thank you for all the tech weeks, and all the plays(especially Alice). Thank you for all the cross country seasons and all the crazy escapades. Thank you for just being everything each of you are, I am so blessed to have you all in my life. I can't wait to see what the future holds for us all, and I'm so grateful to have you all with me.  I love you!!

Why Be Happy

Everyday we are given millions of decisions, right?  Some are pretty easy.. It's easy to say Yes I will eat that chocolate cake or No, I don't want any anchovies on my pizza. But sometimes these decisions aren't so easy and we really have to think about what we are doing, and some of these take a lot of prayer. 

One of the few decisions I have found to be the easiest is the one I try to make every morning. I decide to Be Happy. Now you might be thinking this girl is crazy, but in truth it really is our decision. I used to hate it when people told me to be happy because it's not like something I could just turn on and off, right? Wrong. We choose our attitude and in choosing to be happy or to try to be happy we are setting ourselves up for success. There is that old saying, "The prettiest thing a girl can wear is her smile," and there is a lot of truth to that statement. I see girls with makeup and without makeup and yes, that does make a difference. But that's just it... they look different. Not better, not worse, just different. When I see people smiling it's just like joy bursting through the soul. Every person who smiles lights up the world and makes it just a little bit brighter. We are so blessed, why shouldn't we smile? 

I am the first one to admit life isn't easy, but if we can make it a little better, why dont we try it? Let's all try to be just a bit happier... because it could do us all some good. Why don't we all try to Be Happy, each and every day. It could do us all some good.